Is Delusion of God good?

For those that don't care to navigate through the last ramble, here's the succinct version:

Maybe God doesn't exist, but mayber its better to pretend that He does.

(I can't believe I'm debating this childish stuff in my head. Why can't I be like normal Christians and just believe in God up to the point where it conflicts with practical aspects of life. Nooooooooooooo..... I have to REALLY believe.)

(Or really not believe.)

I am an extremist.

And I became a Christian originally because I was seeking out the truth. Of course I was on a lot of LSD at the time. :)

U2's line of "I still haven't found what I'm looking for" has become my mantra for life. I'm just tired. When does the "Seek and ye shall find" part kick in?